THE BRAIN'S BLACKHOLE

 Suppressed Thoughts ... Unfulfilled Dreams .... Unimplemented Ideas ...Unexpressed feelings... Words clutched between the teeth...Emotions buried deep inside somewhere in the so called heart(Mind).... When you observe the above expressions, you find a similarity between them.. not a literal one... the effect they leave on an individual, a single extra thought, bringing up a feeling , which when translated in to our language starts with "If only i...."  .Yes,everyone in their life come across this feeling, this single thought which eats the brain like a virus... it spreads its wings in every department of brain and just make life miserable...Between the gap of "trying to sleep & sleep" an emptiness fills the heart/mind, like a blackhole it sucks every other thought and brings an unexpressible pain originating somewhere in the deeper layers of the brain....
Gentlemen and Ladies... let me introduce you,the most notorious yet, an unspoken feeling of our life, "REGRET".

I know a middle aged man who dreamt of becoming an engineer but due to some X factors he joined a general degree course....He, then dreamt of becoming a management executive, but due to some Y factors he, dropped out in the middle... He could have fought with the X and Y factors but he chose not.He, then got a good job... got married... had children... settled life... every thing is fine "outside"... but the dark circles formed below his eyes and the tears which stopped behind his weary old eyelids reminds me a of a feeling "its miserable inside".
I know a guy who rejected a girl's love due to some X reasons,When he found out that he had positive feelings  for her and asked her for her hand, she rejected unwillingly him for some Y reasons.They both could have fought against X and Y reasons and could have become a great COUPLE, but they chose not to.Then they both got into their work found some new partners for themselves...got job..settled with their new one's....everything is fine "outside". But when ever i see them,the broken smiles on their faces..the chocking words when they talk about each other... to each other...the hours of silence when they think of each other in their private times, reminds me of a bitter feeling "it hurts a lot more than you imagine"
A boy who failed for the first time in his life due to X and y factors...
A girl who lost her best friend due to some X and Y factors...
An employee who failed to express his new idea to his higher officer due to X and Y factors...
An individual who failed to claim his self respect when ill treated by some other ,due to X and y factors....
If we start to count up every single thing we wanted to do,but failed to,starts watering this unpleasant... unwanted... seed of misery.
Even me, you.. why not every one of you experience this off spring of our bloopers in life...
Dudes and dudettes... keep in mind that, the only one we have to answer on our death bed is, the one whom we see every time we look in the mirror... make sure that you make him happy all the time by doing things which makes his heart fly in the air with joy...do not hesitate to do what you want... to speak what you feel... The ultimate happiness comes when you give freedom to your thoughts... The feeling of satisfaction,contentment never ending energy comes when you grant unbinding freedom to yourself.Nothing beats the feeling of doing the thing you wanted in the way you wanted... don't add  the starting lines of every saddest story "If only" in your life.
Start fighting with your X and Y's coming in your life preventing you to get the things you wanted... because "Life is simple, when you make choice and you don't look back" but we often look back sadly, because we have made a wrong decision....!!!
  The worst enemy to every human irrespective of ALL DISCRIMINATIONS  IS "REGRET"

        "   LIFE IS A WAR WHERE EVERY ONE GETS HIS CHANCE TO WIN, BUT, TO FIGHT  FOR HIS CAUSE OR, TO SURRENDER TO SOME CAUSE  IS UP TO YOU"
                                                                                                                              -NANI

DO YOU BELIEVE IN LIFE??

"DO YOU BELIEVE IN LIFE??"

One of my favorite questions "Do you believe in god??".When ever i ask this question i get many different answers. Some say "yes" ,some say "no", some say "i believe in the times of need", some say "partly", some say "i believe in the energy connecting the universe and i call it as god".
Well...when the"answer is "yes" ,then my curiosity increases,then i start digging deep into their beliefs...then i ask "do you believe in love??" "do you believe in friendship??" do you believe in relations??" and it ends in my final question unanswered "do you believe in life??".The only answer i get is "I didn't understand the question".

When you could understand the question of belief in some proof less entity "god",in abstract feelings of "love,friendship" etc which are just due to some chemical reactions in brain,why can't you understand the basic question of "do you believe in life??",because when you speak of these things,you place  your highest conception,above your own possibility,and think very little of yourself and your life.Take god for example,he is the almighty..the ultimatum...the highest concept of anything...he is above our head and we surrender everything to him..take love we surrender our ego boundaries,our other passions,some people even their life...the same way friendship goes hand in hand...
All these things are to support the human emotionally as well as spiritually...in his "present" life.

Say it god or friends or love or something else,everything is just to help the human to have his perfect sort of life...but in the course of the brief history of time these went out of the reach of human conception...something greater than human himself.How can this be possible, if everything was created or formed for the well being of human??.

The basic nature of a living thing is to protect its own existence,to expand its family.We humans learnt to use our own skills to get food,shelter in the early stages... to make our offspring better we started choosing a better partner and to impress it we started impressing the opposite sex and we called it LOVE...In times of need, we borrowed food from other humans and returned it when we had enough..when we didn't have enough we were nice to the lenders promising them that we would for sure help when they are in need... we called it FRIENDSHIP.So we drew a circle where we pulled a partner and few fellow humans to support our existence and we called it a family...as the needs grew we drew even big circles and called it a community.. a state...a country... a world...When situation is out of control we created hope for our emotional satisfaction and we finally created a "GOD" an abstract form of the greatest hope...in true words the highest form of helplessness from human side .
Finally, now, everything we created ,went above our head.. we started giving up our lives to love,friendship,country,community,some times even god....This happens only when we lose the control on our lives our emotions...when we lack logic in times of need...

People started living for the sake of society, to impress every human that comes in to their life...the struggle for existence has modified its form to the desperate form of leaving a "nice" impression on every one in the society.People forgot to think,free thinking became a sin,a work done by individual who has no other work for himself...believe it or not.. this is the truth an obvious fact regarding the evolution of human emotions...

"Its a rare gift,you know ,to feel the reverence for your own life and to want the best,the greatest,the highest possible,here,now,for your very own.To imagine a heaven and then not to dream of it,but to demand it"(Ayn Rand) in "this present life"

We have one life... we don't know whether we have the next one or not, we are not sure of next second even, we are not sure of hell or heaven or god or devil... all we have is, this second... this very moment and you should live for yourself..for your own existence... pleasure... happiness...to the maximum extent, to secure the most sacred thing in your life,that is "your existence".
    "We have one  short life... live it fully... live it for yourself"

FIXTURE vs PROBABILITY

After watching one of my favourite movies "FORREST GUMP",today few thoughts struck my mind.....
Well!!!!as far as my thoughts are concerned,the doubts run in a tangled web called "FIXTURE vs PROBABILITY"..

Life may be a series of predefined events..like a fixed design or some random sprinkles of events having infinite possibilities...
Well...some say everyone is destined,some say it is just a random probability...If at all it is a random probability.....WILL IT QUESTION THE EXISTENCE OF GOD????,if it is a design who made it??what "GOD"has to do with this design,if at all he is concerned with this design...he must be definitely related to this so called "MATERIAL WORLD", and definitely "had,have,and will have" to take the sides of so called "GOOD and EVIL" of this materialistic world,which makes him a "SUPERNATURAL BEING" with emotions who has no control over himself...

If people depict GOD as an emotionless "ENTITY",he has nothing to do with taking sides of what is done in this MATERIALISTIC world,so,PRAYING,PLEADING,PRAISING OR ABUSING..etc.won't affect him.
THEN WHY RITUALS ARE PERFORMED???.If at all rituals have hidden socio-scientific reasons,why do people blindly follow them without sense, without even willing to know why do they practice those rituals???.

Well!!!! if at all it has become mandatory to perform few things in brief history of time,why didn't  anyone question it??
"Does one has to always surrender his self respect,to some PROOF LESS SUPERNATURALITY,a SENSELESS AXIOM,SOME RANDOM CURVE which is blindly believed to be a STRAIGHT LINE,and forced to be believed  as a straight line.
Why does no human questions it???
Why does always a harmless creature or frankly put in true words "a powerless or a weak creature" which appears to be coward in nature,which in other word "a creature put to utter damnation" is used as a standard for humans,(lambs...sheep).
So is human an utter coward...??? or some creature just born to pretend to be "nice" and beg some un-real super hero(GOD) for forgiveness,forsaking his own identity and his self-respect...
If at all god wants human to grow up to him... why does human should beg,pray and surrender????

"Human " should be a brave entity unlike sheep...rather be a lion!!!to tear stupidity,cowardice into pieces...
"Question should be his weapon...reason and answers be his targets...
 LOGIC  should be his support,strength...he should be able to face the truth with the strength of heart...to stand naked in sunlight...not to grope in darkness,hoping someone will come to rescue..."

If at all life is a mere sprinkled ...droplets of rain...there is no need to ponder pon the meaning of life...other than to do "one's own work,at that moment".