Tuesday, March 22, 2011

THE BRAIN'S BLACKHOLE

 Suppressed Thoughts ... Unfulfilled Dreams .... Unimplemented Ideas ...Unexpressed feelings... Words clutched between the teeth...Emotions buried deep inside somewhere in the so called heart(Mind).... When you observe the above expressions, you find a similarity between them.. not a literal one... the effect they leave on an individual, a single extra thought, bringing up a feeling , which when translated in to our language starts with "If only i...."  .Yes,everyone in their life come across this feeling, this single thought which eats the brain like a virus... it spreads its wings in every department of brain and just make life miserable...Between the gap of "trying to sleep & sleep" an emptiness fills the heart/mind, like a blackhole it sucks every other thought and brings an unexpressible pain originating somewhere in the deeper layers of the brain....
Gentlemen and Ladies... let me introduce you,the most notorious yet, an unspoken feeling of our life, "REGRET".

I know a middle aged man who dreamt of becoming an engineer but due to some X factors he joined a general degree course....He, then dreamt of becoming a management executive, but due to some Y factors he, dropped out in the middle... He could have fought with the X and Y factors but he chose not.He, then got a good job... got married... had children... settled life... every thing is fine "outside"... but the dark circles formed below his eyes and the tears which stopped behind his weary old eyelids reminds me a of a feeling "its miserable inside".
I know a guy who rejected a girl's love due to some X reasons,When he found out that he had positive feelings  for her and asked her for her hand, she rejected unwillingly him for some Y reasons.They both could have fought against X and Y reasons and could have become a great COUPLE, but they chose not to.Then they both got into their work found some new partners for themselves...got job..settled with their new one's....everything is fine "outside". But when ever i see them,the broken smiles on their faces..the chocking words when they talk about each other... to each other...the hours of silence when they think of each other in their private times, reminds me of a bitter feeling "it hurts a lot more than you imagine"
A boy who failed for the first time in his life due to X and y factors...
A girl who lost her best friend due to some X and Y factors...
An employee who failed to express his new idea to his higher officer due to X and Y factors...
An individual who failed to claim his self respect when ill treated by some other ,due to X and y factors....
If we start to count up every single thing we wanted to do,but failed to,starts watering this unpleasant... unwanted... seed of misery.
Even me, you.. why not every one of you experience this off spring of our bloopers in life...
Dudes and dudettes... keep in mind that, the only one we have to answer on our death bed is, the one whom we see every time we look in the mirror... make sure that you make him happy all the time by doing things which makes his heart fly in the air with joy...do not hesitate to do what you want... to speak what you feel... The ultimate happiness comes when you give freedom to your thoughts... The feeling of satisfaction,contentment never ending energy comes when you grant unbinding freedom to yourself.Nothing beats the feeling of doing the thing you wanted in the way you wanted... don't add  the starting lines of every saddest story "If only" in your life.
Start fighting with your X and Y's coming in your life preventing you to get the things you wanted... because "Life is simple, when you make choice and you don't look back" but we often look back sadly, because we have made a wrong decision....!!!
  The worst enemy to every human irrespective of ALL DISCRIMINATIONS  IS "REGRET"

        "   LIFE IS A WAR WHERE EVERY ONE GETS HIS CHANCE TO WIN, BUT, TO FIGHT  FOR HIS CAUSE OR, TO SURRENDER TO SOME CAUSE  IS UP TO YOU"
                                                                                                                              -NANI